My apology for apologizing

During my six weeks back in the US I met with individuals, groups and churches and told them about what I, eDOT, EuroTeam TEFL and GEM do. I wanted people to get excited about what I am excited about. I told the same stories over and over again, I explained the details of what the heck an instructional designer actually does and then towards the end I asked if people would like to join my ministry partner team prayerfully and/or financially. All of this was fine, nothing was done horribly wrong, except one thing…I apologized.

Now, my parents raised me right and taught me to apologize when I did something wrong. The problem here, is I didn’t do anything wrong. I was apologizing because I was asking for money. I apologized because I know that being asked over and over again to donate money to one cause or another can be super annoying. I apologized because, well, I felt uncomfortable asking.

Here’s the problem and the reason for this apology: I had nothing to apologize for, but by doing so, I didn’t properly invite people to join in and participate in the ministry to which God has called me, where my talents are being used, where, only by the grace of God, people may hear about Christ and choose to follow Him. I was contacted by someone I respect who called me out on this and told me to never apologize when inviting people to help reach others for Christ. I failed, and for this I apologize.

My plan is to properly invite people into my ministry partner team, where they can truly feel and see their impact in Europe. It won’t stop at the invitation though. Through this blog, my newsletters and any conversation you all have with me about my ministry, I will strive to inform you on my work here in Germany. You all deserve better, and my hope is to help you understand just how valuable you all are to me, the ministry and those that come across the curriculum I design.

I’m sorry and I hope you all will feel like more of a team from now on and will better understand how important you truly are.

One thought on “My apology for apologizing”

  1. You have nothing to apologize for. Your dad ..my awesome cousin Paul….accepted me with all my flaws.. He knew how we were raised and that we had no religious up bringing. Sure we went to Faith Lutheran but my parents weren’t involved in any aspect of this part of my life..what I’ve learn has been from a few friends that never shoved it down my throat but encouraged me to believe and belong ..Which I do.. I cant recite any passages as a lot can.well maybe a couple. Dad was old school and felt going to work and providing for his family was more important then anything else.. Mom had her medical issues and drama.. I grew up at a young age of 7 when Randy was born. I took care of him..
    I love the fact that you have found your calling and love that you love doing it and not being pushed into something else.Best of luck in Germany! I look forward into reading about your experiences..
    Hugs..

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